Mansion Down by the Sea

when the page I see is white
and I've no words to write
and I can't be polite
when the hopes I had have shattered
and nothing else mattered
sickly, here bruised and battered
I await you

You made me a home near the ocean there
a coffin, a prison, a hole so bare
You called it my mansion down by the sea
and you sank me, you drowned me, I'm ending

when the words I speak all are lost
and I cannot bear the cost
into the air all my dreams you tossed
just to watch them all shatter
for none of this will matter
serve me my heart on a platter
I await you

You made me a home near the ocean there
a coffin, a prison, a hole so bare
You called it my mansion down by the sea
and you sank me, you drowned me, I'm ending

In eyes the color of ocean waves
You took my hand and promised me
You'd stand by my side all these days
and bid me to follow you faithfully

You made my death by the ocean there
a coffin, a prison in a hole so bare
It isn't a mansion down by the sea
it's a place to drown me, to kill me, slowly

now I have no words left to free my soul
I will lie helpless here in this lonely hole
until an angel with a saving role
comes to take my hand and give me wings
lifts me out of this darkness while he sings
words to scream at you, to me he brings

I'll escape from my home by the ocean there
a coffin, a prison, no longer will I care
Blue eyes will not be the mansion for me
nor will it be the death of me
you will not be the death of me
I'm not drowning


9/16/11

Shot the Kaleidscope for Happy?

"Shot"

bullet in the dark
i consult your intentions
poke at you with a metaphorical fork
you seem to be colored in something like crimson
perhaps it's poison
you seem to have left a trail
you leave behind a stain
and in my chest I feel pain
what are you?

9/16/11

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"You Sound Like Happy"

if all i can remember is your laugh
that is all i need
that is all i will hear haunt my dreams
if all i can hold to is your happiness
i will feel joy for you
i will feel better knowing the truth
if only laughter were enough to stop the earth
i would claim a moment or two
to carve into my eardrums the sweetest sound
it's the sound of you

9/16/11

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"Kaleidoscope"

They broke me long ago
this you didn't know, this you didn't know
Then you came and told me to stand
told me the remnants of my being were mine to keep
so I remade myself in fragments of glass
and you made me feel beautiful
and useful
and different to the eyes
you made of me a marvel
If you only realized
Prismatic is my heart now, love
contained in changing lights

9/16/11

Dead Cardinal

inside my hand you lay in feathers red
oh, bird, my sweet
i fear you're dead
this swift descent toward barren ground
in wounded thoughts
and mourning sound
she stole your life and freedom wings
in feathers red
and broken dreams
i lay you now in sodden grass
and wait in agony
for you to pass

...they came down....

and they came down
and they came down
like silver breaking, breaking down
in smoke and ash
in death and grief
they came down in melting heat
oh, how we mourned
oh, how we cried
they came down
and many died
oh, how we mourned
and still have cried
for smoke and ash
when many died
they came down
oh, they came down
in breaking glass
and broken pride
and when they fell
and we all cried
it changed it all
with those who died

The Moon is Blown, Mary Poppins

"Blown"

Undo me now
I don't know how
you effect me like you do
It's not contained
my voice isn't restrained
take a bow
for what you claimed
I don't call the shots
but you know the spots
to learn
How can you be so wonderful?
I am incapable
of comprehension
My mind is blown

8/19/11

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"Setting Fire to Space with Mary Poppins' Help"

power keg, loaded rocket in the back seat
send this ship to the moon
take all the contents of Mary Poppins' bag
and we'll set the moon on fire
loaded gun, and don't you turn away
take this higher than before
Whisper to the wind, 'we will catch you again'
and set the world on fire
I'll claim the seven seas if you stand by me
I'll fly straight into the stars
load the cannon, sir, and blow this place high
I am writing your name in the sky
Let's make it all go up in flames, scorch this place
and set fire to the room
Send me on my way, follow, follow say,
'here we are
this is better than the moon'
Blast away, rocket in the world I say
'take me higher than this place'
and set fire
in space

8/19/11

By Elizabeth A.

Take Me Away to Write Songs For You

"I'll Compose One For You"

there's never a song that contains all the words
you make me wish to scream
never a verse so perfectly put to explain what i mean
there is no melody that captures the hurt and the remorse
there is no tune to captivate with the way in which you do
and there is no amount of drumming to suffice in explaining the way you make my
heart pound
there are no words to describe you in a song
and to try, well, it would be wrong
you make my breath catch and you make my heart yearn
you make me smile
you make my soul die and you have let me scream and burn
i cannot express the ups nor the downs and no song will try
no song will ever catch all the tears in one place
nor all the ways i cried
there are no songs about you, dear
there are no tunes nor melodies
and there never was a composer to try, none other
than me


8/4/11


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"Ticket Away"

Buy me a ticket to a better place
I need an airplane to save my life
I need to get away from this space
that is keeping me here in strife

Take me on journey for my broken heart
I need a place to rest these weary feet
I am in desperate need of a better start
And I really need new people to meet

So won't you, won't you, won't you
buy me a ticket away?

I need an airplane to save my life
I need a moment to capture happiness
I need a way to get away from strife
and I gotta' combat this loneliness

Take me on a journey for my restless mind
Take me up high and let me leave tonight
I need to leave this place far behind
Let me do what just feels right

So won't you, won't you, won't you
buy me a ticket away?
I needed to leave a couple months
before yesterday

8/5/11

Iron Ground

"Iron Gate"

You're a landscape photo of doom
A haunted corridor and frozen time
You're a dead flower never to bloom
and you won't claim what is mine
So step back here now
And wait
I will place up this gate
These iron bars spell out for you clearly
You cannot have what belongs to me
You're a collection of the dreadful ones
A nasty little thought inside your mind
You're the one choking out my lungs
and I am breaking down inside
So step back right now
And wait
I will place up this gate
These iron bars will explain it perfectly
You don't get to keep what belongs to me

8/5/11
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"The Ground"


the ground is where we drag ourselves along
no flags of white
no freedom song
the ground is where we lay our souls
no words to save
no softer holes
the ground is where we leave behind hope
no ending light
no way to cope
the ground is where we see the sky
no way to reach
no time to fly
the ground is where we lay for sleep
no more pain again
no more fight to keep


7/27/11


by Elizabeth A.

Blooming Dawn

The night spiralled cold and
forgotten was the hope and
winter was bitter to our souls
But now in warmth I shall reach
for a new sun
But tell me where does it shine?

For you I was wanting the truth
I was needing the hope
for a blooming dawn
I was seeking the light at the end
of this tunnel but I
could not see but a shadow

In search of a brigter day
I will make a way
I'll pull you along and keep you here
I'll brave all the elements
I will not recompense the light
For I am trying

For you I was wanting the truth
I was needing the hope
for a blooming dawn
I was seeking the north star
to find where I will start a new
life where the flowers bloom

But darkness still holds me
and winter still bars me
and death is a mask on my face
Spring was a falsehood and who
shall tell me otherwise?
Can you reach for hope in another sphere
in alien skies?

For you I was wanting the truth
I was needing the hope
for a blooming dawn
I was charting our stars
I was battling the edge of
sanity
it was me

The night spiralled dark and cold
and here I am growing old
and you are doing what you're told
but speak in only hushed tones
don't scare the light
don't scare the light
it's coming........
coming......
coming like the dawning of the end of the days
coming like the ending of the errors of our ways
coming like the waves that moved only for the moon
coming, coming, coming, coming......soon

By Elizabeth Azpurua on 8/1/11

This Ship Is Mine

i held my tongue for so long
i held back my words for a song
i couldn't speak when you got near
too much overflowing for you to hear
and the wind blew
and then i knew

no matter what may come
no matter the waves i'll fight
i know this ship is mine
i know this ship is mine
i became the one to set sail here
i know this ship is mine
and i won't abandon it in fear

you make me forget my curse
remind me it could always be worse
you keep me focused on myself
and you keep me here in better health
when the wind blows
suddenly troubles go

no matter what can come
no matter what i'll fight
i know this ship is mine
i know this ship is mine
i am the one setting sail here
i know this ship is mine
and no matter what i might fear
i know i will be fine

you teach me to battle the ocean
with you i learned true emotion
i became who i really am
when you told me who i am
i took off the mask for you
you teach me to ride out the waves
and you are my anchor on bad days
i know i am safer by your side
and together it's an easier ride
i got this ship from you

no matter what may come
i know this ship is mine
the one you helped me find
no matter what i fight
i know this ship feels right
i have gone and set sail here
i know this ship is mine
and i'll never abandon in fear
it's gonna be alright

Heaven For Me

I want to slide inside a bed by an ocean breeze
Tease in provocative words on my knees
Test out the waters for some glorious fun
and let my hair down and go for a run
I don't wanna think, no I don't
I would like to never say 'I wont'
If I could sneak off and be somebody else I would
if I could
There are marvels and mysteries
and clothing to buy
There is men a plenty and I wont deny
That for a summer to be wild and free and alive
Would be just what the doc said would help me survive
I wanna drink the exotic and learn the erotic
Rock climb and scuba dive
I wanna learn the poetic and gain new aesthetic
and when I finally run out of time
I will declare I shall drink a little wine
and devour chocolates divine
This would quite possibly be like heaven for me
If I could only allow myself ecstasy

7/23/11

No Logic, Just Actions

I'm not coming up with reasons
I'm not speaking for the noise
I'm not giving propositions
and you always had a choice
Give me one little moment
I will change your weary thoughts
I always practiced patience
but I learned all I forgot
I will take back my musings
I will not force your hand
I like things that aren't confusing
So now dear, please understand
I want with a want that isn't thoughtful
I need with a need that has no strings
I'll not label out the reasons this is right or
paint a picture of all that we can be
I'll just push you down
so my thoughts aren't bound
to reason or logic or right
I'll just push you down
pin you to the ground
with an enthusiastic bite

by Elizabeth Azpurua

Ruddy Mad Hatter

"Mad Hatter Love"

you make my heart go pitter patter
and i'm crazy like the mad hatter
got no clue what i am gonna do
but you are ticklin' my fancy, you
you go my pulse sped up and jumpin'
and my whole body is feelin' a thrummin'
and there goes the tap tap tap of my heartbeat
i hang on your every word on the edge of my seat
i think you struck me down
and i am held so bound
by your captivating glances
makin' me want to take new chances
hold me down since i might just float away
crazy and foolish i think you make me stay

7/10/11

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"Ruddy"


Hey you with the hazel eyes
Mr. Ruddy I
wanna stay with you
I want to see you smile, stay for a while
and let me laugh with you
Hey you with the wicked eyes
Say you'll become my
reason to follow through
I wanna see your wicked grin, don't pretend
that you don't want to
Hey you with the hazel eyes
Mr. Ruddy I
need to lay by you
I wanna see the stars and feel safe from harm
hold me close to you
just stay right here


7/7/11

by: me

Summer Eagles

So it goes, when you twist and break your bones
I am bent over telephone poles
and seeking sunny skies
I'm pulling wagon wheels
and you're scraping for better meals while they sit and cut your hair
There are opossums a'plenty and banjos galore
and seasons that change before you had asked for more
There are red laces in green grass and eagles to your right
with victims in their sharp beaks and freedom in their sight
So it goes, when you leap and don't land on your toes
You end up bleeding in your roles
and seeing every one's lies
You're getting sick on dandelion weeds
and using toothpicks to cut away the reeds down by this pond
There is nothing more for you here other than the tombstones
and runners leaping barriers while seeking higher thrones
There's balloons forgotten in the trees and eagles to your right
their eyes are saying you are the fool while freedom was in sight
So it goes, you come just like the new wind blows
while I have been digging a dozen holes
to say just how time flies
I was making wooden baby cribs
and singing lullabies in worn out wigs beside this forgotten place
There is nothing but the weeds and wagons, boots and dragons here
and runners singing folklore songs while grinning ear to ear
There's dandelions in my hair and a scar across my heart
while you are looking at the markings left after the part
There's blood in patches on the porch and eagles to your right
with banners blaspheming folly and mocking the freedom in your sight
Since you ran away and left it good and dead
when you never even heard a word I'd said
about broken bones and bitter words and bread

7/4/11

Poison and a Hearse

those stars just don't seem to ever cross
and the bridges I burnt are a formidable loss
the echoes of past times are a sickening sound
and when you enter here my head spins around
there is no light in these darkened rooms
I choke and die within your toxic fumes
you let me crawl across the floor in agony
and never give me any of your mercy
and now those stars rain down like evil fire
and all the reasons I held onto become dire
you breathe the poison into me like a curse
and then call for me a long black hearse
and watch as I'm taken in a coffin of loss
bearing the emblem of a broken cross
so my lifeless form will remember the sickening sound
of the love that I sought after and never found

7/3/11

Catch My Breath this Summer

"Catch My Breath"

is it worth all the endings
all the walls?
is it worth all the beginnings
and broken falls?
give me a moment to catch my breath
and I'll tell you everything
from the movement of your shoulders
to your smile
from the ending of my troubles
and the miles
you have crossed just to make me catch my breath
and say all I need to say to you
that I love you, I do
and yet you throw me down the hill again
break me, bend me, until I end
you crash me here across this floor
and I keep coming back for more
is it worth all of the endings?
is it worth all of the miles?
can inside the new beginnings
I hold onto a smile?
inside of every moment
you make me stop and catch my breath
and I will tell you every second
that I love you ....
to death

7/2/11

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"Summer Love"

Trip
skip, hop and fall
Jump up and embrace these summer skies
and when the hot summer grasses grow
look me in the eyes
leap, dive and fall
into you

7/2/11

By: Elizabeth Azpurua

Black Throne

I was a kaleidoscope of empathy
Put me under a microscope of apathy
Take away my reasons why
Shut my mind to close my eyes
Your judgements harsh and bitter now
Take my improvements and blur them out
I was sitting in that well; from the bottom where I fell
You pulled me out to tell me how I was a fool
Now I try to make amends
But who am I to pretend?
There isn't any love left here
So go back to your lonely sphere
You left me like an attic toy
You took away my life and joy
And after all these bitter fears
I am counting up all these tears
In an infinite amount I'll see
Just what you had meant to me
I rode a black throne for you
Tried to rule that home with you
So use all your logic here
And tell me so it becomes clear
You never wanted to hold me tight
You only wanted me wound up, right?
I will be free and I will stand tall
In my epiphany I will know it all
Take your silver throne
And leave my one true home
I will remain outside alone
Free to finally roam

6/17//11

Ruled by Logic

Sometimes I feel my voice is radio static to your ears
it's nonsense garbled within the wind
my words are thoughtless and tossed to and  fro
my purpose still unknown
I`m a carbon based lifeform ruled by logic, seeking perfect, and finding faults
I`m a dreamer needing reasons but finding dead ends...
and when I sort it out I might just be an echo on the wind
A problem never solved, riddle that was hard and an investigation of the heart
I will fill the silence with letters and speak in complicated terms
so these thoughtless words will die on my tongue in the air
When I figure it all out I will be invincible and free
and not chained to logical conclusions or meanings boxed and labeled
I will be like the bird who takes flight not needing to understand why it is that it can fly

Killer Doll is Hurting Me

"Who's Fault is it For Hurting?"

You're a shotgun in the dark
that I never see coming
at me
left with holes and scars
Who's fault is this
for hurting?
So you mock me now?
And you poke my eyes out
and you leave me to die on the ground
Who's fault is it for my hurting?
So why is it blamed on me?
You're a stormcloud on my beach of hope
that lightening strike will get me
and I never see it coming
at me
So you end me in a whirl of flames
and you poke at my scorched skin
Well who's fault is it that I'm hurting?
Then why do I get blamed for it?

5/25/11

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"Killer Doll"

Charade, with a knife, and coller
of lace, and pearls, and ribbons
Curls and lipstick and a smile on your face
you stick the knife into me
I was besotted by your beauty
I had thought you were a doll
So, you smile, Charade, in your lace and pearls
and with a knife
you kill me

5/25/11

Bleed Honesty

I wanna bleed honesty
I wanna mop the floor with me
I wanna let you see what is here
like I painted it out to read
I wanna bleed honesty
Don't hold back, here's what it'll be
It may not makes sense at first
but you better listen of course

I got miles and mounds and murals
I got piles and pounds and hurtles
I got missions and reasons and problems
and I don't got the time
I got seconds for hours and nothing
I cannot complete a damn thing
So don't get all up tight
I'm just out of time

I wanna bleed honesty
Let the words leave out of me
I want to scream them until you hear
or write them so you'll read
I wanna bleed honesty
I gotta get away from me
Let it out here on this floor to learn
you better listen and be warned

I am tired...tired...tired of being kind
I am tired...tired...tired and I ain't fine
So, shut up, shut out, and go on by

I got miles and mounds and murals
I got piles and pounds and hurtles
I got missions and reasons and problems
and I don't got the time
I got seconds for hours and nothing
I cannot complete a damn thing
So don't get all up tight
I'm just out of time


I shoulda' bled out long ago
I should of let all of you people know
Your selfishness adds to my wounds
And I'm not going through
I shoulda' bled out long ago
I don't know but I need you to know
I don't have time for your problems
I got my own

I got miles and miles to go
I got mounds of things I don't know
I got murals of dreams not coming true
I got piles of troubles I can't get through
I got pounds of hurts and heartache
I got hurtles that make my back break
I got missions to do for the weary
I got reasons that seem too blury
And my problems mount so high
so I just don't have the time

I wanna bleed honesty
So here me now and let this be
I can't give anymore
This is not worth fighting for

By Elizabeth Azpurua
5/25/11

Unforgiven Pollution Killed You

"The Pollution"

Acrid and unforgiving
it's choking
it's ending
it's spilling over the edges
gone beyond ledges
and leaped over hedges
and crept through these walls
and died

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"Killed You"

I poisoned you
slowly
I opened you
with razors and ice
I wrapped you in webs and fed you to spiders
and when you screamed
I closed my eyes
I shattered you
quickly
like a vase on the table
I looked at a shard
contemplating the past and let it fall
I let it fall hard

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"Unforgiven"

I'm like the erupting volcanoes of Iceland
I blow, the ash settles and no planes can fly
I am like the flood waters that threaten
I wash away hopes and watch as they die
I am like the earthquakes that shake you
I often find buildings scattered and fallen
I'm like the tsunami that took away their world
I may never be loved nor be forgiven

Kept Away From the Trees

She wakes each day
pulls herself together
Smears the happy across her skin
and puts her peices together
She goes by and smiles along
carries the tune to a song
He is elsewhere doing his work
not ever writing his wrong
He had promised, promised, promised
He had promised to be
there by her side when she needed him there
but he didn't stop her, did he?
She was driving, driving so fast
trees seemed to be a perfect end
Was he there to tell her "no"
No, he was not there to mend
So, now who stopped her from such a thing?
Who was the savior for her?
It was a ruddy boy who knew not
but what he offered her
Happiness, he offered a dream
so she held onto that
and he delivered oh, such a thing
but she could not know what she had
For she wakes each day
pulls her self upright
struggles to just wake up
and go for the light
And she goes by day after day
holding that memory
that kept her away
from the trees
from the trees
So play the song, play the tune, play it long
Play that melody to keep you strong
Happiness is but a dream away
a memory
of that October day

By Elizabeth Azpurua 5/14/11

I am Happiness

I'm a fading sun

like a dying day

The weeping willow

and the lonely bay

I'm a little vessel

adrift at sea

I'm the lonely hilltop

and the silent breeze

I am just a will o' the wisp

you always try to follow

I disappear before you reach me

And if you should try to capture me, you won't

I'm never fully here at all

I'm that shooting star

you never see

Whether near or far

you cannot find me

I am the illusive creature

of the deep

That one treasure sought for

you'll never keep

I am like a little vessel

adrift at sea

I am a spider's thread

you cannot see

But still you come for me...

I'm still the will o' the wisp

you try to follow

I'll disappear before you reach me

And if you try to capture me, you won't

I'm never fully here at all

I'm the mountain tall

you cannot climb

I am the bridge to cross

you cannot find

I am the dragonfly

you'll never ride

and the weeping willow

where I hide

Like the fading sun

I'm the dying day

A lonely hill

or a lonely bay

I'm that dream you never seem to have

And yet you keep on trying to

But I'm the will o' the wisp

you shouldn't follow

I like to disappear before you reach me

And I'll never, ever let you catch me

For I'm never fully here at all

By Elizabeth Azpurua