Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Enough of Falling In Love This Way

"The Way I Love You"

Of all the times I've run, never have I run
so fast as I've ran towards you
Of all the times I've jumped, never have I jumped
so far as I've jumped towards you
Of all the times I've sung a song, never so loud
have I sung like I sing to you
Of all the times I've written words never have I wrote
such poetry as I write for you
And of all the ways I've spoken your name never do
I speak with such wonder as when speaking of you
Never have I loved in the way that I love you, nor will
I ever love another in the ways that I've loved you

6/29/10

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"Enough"

It's not enough to
say that I'm content
and willing to sit here
nor wait a million breaths
until sharing with you
my own
It's not enough to
say I'm patient
and will always be right here
wishing a million wishes
to be sharing with you
my life
It's not enough to
say this is perfect
and I'll never move from here
and kiss a million kisses
trailing all over you
my love
Because it's not enough
and I need more

6/30/10

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"Who Loves Falling?"

like falling into silence
and waiting on your wings
this momentary weightlessness
is a lie disguising things
it's telling you all will be fine
and the air will hold you tight
and come the morning you'll wake up
and the world will be alright
it's never speaking truth
about the breaking at the fall
when the bottom comes rushing fast
and no one hears your call
you'll never be told the painfulness
the hollow feeling that will ache
nor how the wings you thought you had
never grew from whispers fake
or how the ground is so far down
and the air will rush on by you
and when the light dims inside your eyes
you'll never wake to hear "I love you"

6/30/10

All by Elizabeth Azpurua

Monday, June 28, 2010

Fill The Silence Here With Joy

I miss your light and I miss your warmth
It's getting cold and I'm feeling hurt
These windows don't bring the sunshine in
Without you to send it
I miss your smile and I miss your words
It's quiet here and life's all a blur
The sky isn't the blue like your eyes are
And I can't replace my heart
So tell me what to do now?
Tell me how to cope?
I want to touch your fingertips
I'm feeling sorta' broke
So tell me what do I do now?
It's all lonely here, my sunny boy
Bring back my happy summer glow
And fill the silence here with joy
I miss your light and I miss your warmth
It's not the same and I'm getting worse
These windows just don't let in the light
Without you here with me
I miss your songs and I miss your words
I'm a wreck and I'm feeling hurt
There's not enough to smile about now
You were my sunny summer light
So tell me, tell me what to do?
Tell me how do I cope?
I want to kiss your pretty lips
Inside I'm feeling mainly broke
So tell me what do I do now?
I'm all lonely here, my sunny boy
Bring back my happy summer glow
And fill the silence here with joy

6/27/10

By Elizabeth Azpurua

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Castaway Ribs

"Ribs"
you ran away with the breaking sunlight
and now you are chasing all our dreams
i thought tomorrow's rays would cloud over
but the space aches in between
my ribs
you dashed away towards the dawning daylight
and now you are stealing all our dreams
i thought the broken rays would be blown over
but the emptiness stings in between
my ribs
where my heart used to be
where my heart used to be
it is painful just where my heart had been
you ran away towards the dawn and daybreak
and somehow in sunlight live our dreams
i thought the morning sun would fade forever
but the absence erodes in between
my ribs


5/29/10

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"Castaway"

Stupid castaway
caught on a lonely isle
shoulda' been smart enough to swim away
stupid waitin' all the while
stupid castaway
where you gonna get a boat?
you shoulda' had the foresight for today
never heard a word i wrote
did you?
Now you're the stupid castaway

also by me - 6/26/10

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Unnecessary Death Of Us

I can't stand this anymore
it's like a bloody tug-o-war
and unleashed upon my broken heart
this rain
I can't fight you anymore
or claim I've known who it's for
this tangled web is a woven mess
of pain
So just go away
I am turning the other way

Somewhere far from you
Where I can breathe without breathing for you
Where I can think without thinking of you
Where we can bleed without bleeding out
for death
Somewhere far from you
Where I can live without living for you
Where I can give my heart without holding you
Where I can jump without jumping down for you
to this death

I won't do this anymore
I am not your toy tossed on the floor
so let go of this broken mess and let me
get away
I can't hold you anymore
or think to myself it's been done before
I'm throwing the keys away and let me
runaway
I am leaving now, so goodbye
I turned away with one final cry

Going now, somewhere far from you
Where I can breathe without breathing for you
Where I can think without thinking of you
Where we can bleed without bleeding out
for death
Somewhere far from you
Where I can live without living for you
Where I can give my heart without holding you
Where I can jump without jumping down for you
to this death
This unnecessary death of us

I can't fight you off anymore
I am turning here to shut this door
and try to put me back together after all
this rain
I won't do this anymore
this stupid endless tug-o-war
I am pushing this all aside and letting it go
goodbye pain
And I'm sailing away
Getting so far away

Somewhere far from you
Where I can breathe without breathing for you
Where I can think without thinking of you
Where we can bleed without bleeding out
for death
Somewhere far from you
Where I can live without living for you
Where I can give my heart without holding you
Where I can jump without jumping down for you
to this death
This unnecessary death of us
Sorry, I won't let you be the death of us
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye now



By: Elizabeth Azpurua

Saturday, June 19, 2010

...hear me?

hush, shut up and listen
what do you hear...now?
shut up and listen
do you hear me soft
or loud?
can you tell what i'm thinking
oh, tell me, can you hear me
can you now?
hush, shut up and listen
i won't say it loud
shut up and listen
is my voice softer still
a whisper in your ear?
shut up and listen
is it barely audible to you?
do you hear my cries, my joys
is my laughter through your soul?
can you hear me now...can you?
will you hear me out, will you?
hush, shut up and listen
to my calling
softly
softly
shut up and listen
as i scream your name loudly
tell me, tell me can you
can you hear me now?
oh, tell me now can you hear me?
do you know what i say,
do you know how i pray,
do you hear me?
will you hear...me
softly?
do you hear me...still?
hush
shut up and listen
can you hear me...
...
... still?
will you, will you hear me
will you, will you, will......
...you...



by yours truly
(pause each period for a heartbeat)

Friday, June 18, 2010

Boys beware.....

"The Girls Next Door"

on the eve of a nightmare they perform wearing pearls
and lace, a corset of satin, and hair caught up in curls
they dance to the sound of your sorrows and pain
with music to sing to that makes you insane
their faces like angels hide all their sins in a mask
they'll bend over backwards and do all that you ask
the price that you pay is red like fine silk
and flows out your heart and spills like it's milk
you thought they were magical creatures of joy
but discovered they use and discard you like a toy
their performance is lights flashing to entrance
quick, shut your eyes and don't follow that dance

by me

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Magic and a Tragedy

tragic it seems now; not that it ever never seemed so, tragic that is
and magic it was once; not that you ever liked me so, with magic
and here lies my heart;
stone cold and old now it seems
never seemed another way though, did it?
and you never did understand it
sadness is all I know; not that I ever never knew happy, but so long
and precious was us once; not that it ever mattered to you, or will
and there goes my hope;
fell like a stone and dead it seems
never seemed another way to you I guessed it
and you'll never ever get it
but it's all poetry now
tragic; it's a tragedy now and so you never ever got another memory
quite like magic; never like we were once, all magic and a tragedy
and there lies my heart;
stitched, shuttered, and boarded up
feels sorta' dead to me now it seems
ever once it was another way wasn't it?
I'll just never understand it

by elizabeth azpurua on 6/12/10

Friday, June 11, 2010

Breathe the Air of Summer

hush, the scent of jasmine
and the air of summer wind
the balmy nighttime splendor
in the hallow of windows
follow the sky across your soul
open your arms wide here below
and breathe in the magic
and breathe in the magic
hush, the whirl of window fans
and fireflies battling the wind
the static charged summer air
is the constant present friend
follow the clouds across your soul
open your arms wide here below
and breathe in the magic
and breathe in the magic
it's summertime here
soak it in

by Elizabeth Azpurua

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Is Hate a Color?

hailstorms
they are the wickedness of sorrow
the basic enemy we borrow
to leave shattered panes of glass
stained like the colors we hate
windowpanes
they fear the enemy like an avalanche
and wait for hope like happenstance
their folly in the stains upon their surface
stained with the colors they hate
the kaleidoscope
leaves the cathedral a marvel of glass
the floors covered in memories past
the faulty edges so jagged and used
stained in the colors of hate


By Elizabeth Azpurua 6/7/10

Saturday, June 5, 2010

"You" Can Mean So Much, Not "You", but "You"

"Etched Forever"
chasing butterflies with no net
and battling cobwebs in the closet
startled by the truth
that makes pock marks in the wood floor
and leaves the remembrance
etched
forever
I am etched forever
fighting demons with a toothpick
and winning doubled over and sick
stranded by the truth
that made rivulets all across the walls
and leaves the remembrance
etched
forever
I am etched and I'll never
recover
from you
but you don't care, do you?


5/29/10

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"Because of you......"

There may be happy days
and there may be sad
and sometimes I battle against both
for what I never had
but no matter the emotions
nor the feelings inside
you lift me with your voice
and I'm better by your side
It's the strength in your arms
and the smile on your face
your soft cotton shirts
and knowing I'm safe
I feel like flying, love
and feel like trying love
and feel like I'm in love
because of you, love
it's all better now today
because of you

Both by Elizabeth Azpurua

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Let the Broken Heart Go

"Never Let Go"
i was sitting and dreaming of the day
and hoping, praying that it all would be OK
like a melody to the moon and a prayer to the sky
i was hoping that they'd see the reasons why
they are peas of the same pod and a dream nearly dreamt
an ocean of pontential by the sands of good intent
and i see them like the lightning to shoot across a cloud
and somewhere i am feeling like their music rings aloud
they are what i hoped for and dreamed just to see
a love to bloom inside them and to see them so happy
i have been waiting for the moment that they would know
and hope to God that they'll never let it go
never let that feeling go

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"Healing a Broken Heart"

Breaking, breaking down
and screaming to the mirror
someone shut it out
and turn off the lights
let all the memories go
and let the enemy escape
and tell the shadows they
aren't welcome today
He was all the emblems of love
and all the markings of pain
and she was hatred in a bottle
and a broomstick flying shame
and I was holding in my hands
the feeling of the blame
If the seasons were a changing force
all these scars would be undone
but no, no the time is slow and the
pain is just begun
Breaking, breaking down
and you scream at the walls
and someone shut it out
and turn off the lights
take the pillows home
and toss them out the doors
and never let the shadows
come get you


by Elizabeth Azpurua

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Broken Merry-Go-Round

we all tap, tap, tap dance around the truth like a merry-go-round that's broken and doesn't know it yet
we find marvels in the inconsequential things and tedium in the marvelous
we are like fools stepping off the cliffs into the sea to be swallowed whole and unfulfilled
why capture moon beams and eyelashes and shooting stars in our hands when we simply wish to chuck them out into the universe?
i am finding music in the silence of cavernous moments where the words you should have spoken never left your lying lips
and i am finding poetry in the stupidity of life's choices made selfishly
and it all seems very wrong indeed
i am a rambling fool and tap, tap, tap dancing around the truth like i have become the broken children's ride
and who is to say what my end will be when i realize the wealth of knowledge i ignored all these years?
we all like fools wait for the moment where destiny collides with infinity and eternity just begins for us
and somehow we seek that pearl, that one no one ever put a price on
we collect lucky charms and good luck wishes and hope to God we fall into a love we never knew existed and when we realize it's not what we wanted we cry
if i find solace in your pain and amusement in your discomfort and music in your silence am i a horrible person?
if i spin around in glee on this broken merry-go-round am i also a fool?
and i wonder if i should mind that notion
for all the world is a stage and life is a journey but hell if i know where i'm at in this splendid affair
i think the sound of your voice is choking on the absence of truth
and we all tap, tap, tap dance around that soundless bounty
like fools in a magic show we believe in the illusions of the world your words created once
lovers are all foolish puppets in a game of reality in the vast world we created simply to chuck it into the universe with the emblems of our useless luck
and i never enjoyed so much the facts you never shared before because now i see the essence of what you never could have become
but it's ok sir
this ride is spinning fast

...by me