Saturday, October 29, 2011

I Love You in Hope Disguised as a Red Winged Bird

"Flash of Red"

Little flash of red up in the tree
reminds me of hope for you and me
The symbol that someday we shall be fine
a hope I'll hold to and claim as mine
I'll stand by you no matter what you do
No matter what they say or claim was true
That little flash of red sealed inside for me
the choice I made long ago of loyalty
I feel you in ways I never knew could be
I feel your trembling soul so carefully
You can sit here and be so strong
enduring well, enduring long
You become for me a reason just to try
A reason to believe in a hope that I can fly
We can sit and lay out our promises here
to stand together year after year
A little flash of red up in the tree
reminds me of hope for you and me

10/29/11

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"Loving You"

They say, they say you're not worth it
within in their actions
and their reactions
They say, they say that you're stained
that somehow you're marred
because you've been scarred
They say, they say with their glances
that you do not deserve any more chances
but I say, I say with my resolute proclamation
I will not dwindle in weak kneed consternation
Do not mock me
For loving
They say, they say that can't trust you
always expecting your downfall
But they don't know your call
They say, they say I should move on
as if you're not worth it
they say just to forfeit
They say, they say with their glances
You're not worthy of second chances
but who are they to deny what I have seen?
They cannot envision what has been foreseen
But they mock me
For loving
So I say, I say that I trust you
I know you and love who you are
You are like my one wishing star
And I say, I say you're worth this
worth all the waiting
and my soul's debating
I'll say, I'll say in my glances
You're worth limitless chances
I know inside you're gonna make it out
And that you'll discover what you're about
So don't mock me
For loving.........
..........you.


10/29/11

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"Disguised Hope"

I just want to say I am not crazy
I take the signs from God and heed them well
and when I'm scared of what's to come or could be
I always know from him and I'm OK
So when I'm driving to your home or from your home or all alone
and the trees are blurred while tears sting my eyes
feeling hopeless for these people just don't know you like I do
I am driving too fast
thinking about you
And then they fly
from the trees to the road
and I slow down
and I watch them as they go
and their wings catch the light in crimson shades
and I always make it home safe
So tell me, tell me is it a sign?
A sign to hold to hope in this disguise?
Cardinals are visiting my journey to and fro
and carrying hope with them wherever they go
All I know is crying while I cannot see the end
is never going to make it better now
but God will guide me and help me on my way
just around the bend
a red bird is in that tree


By Elizabeth Azpurua

Thursday, October 27, 2011

It's a Shame to be Shot

"A Shame"

Seems a shame it's gotten this way
where did we go wrong
where did we stray?
Who pulled out the punches
and fed them to us?
Who pushed us over the edge?
It's just not the same....
such a shame
Seems a sorrow we're not talking
why did you decide that I was mean?
What has happened?
Where did we go wrong?

10/26/11

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"Shot Again"

bulletproof
i never was
shot in the dark
shot in the heart
i had trusted them
trusted them all....
so now i'm made of cardboard
shot with holes
i am sick and sorrowed
in worn out soles
my echo is fading
from ended cries
and i never could stop them
nor close these eyes

Sunday, October 16, 2011

"Love Song"

They said, "the roses are red"
They said too, "the violets are blue"
They blamed it on you

I say the sky isn't gray
I say I like it better this way
It's all becoming about you

They can wish to shoot down the wishing star
They'll never reach that far
No they won't
They can try to paint my life without you
But they'll never get through
Without knowing

I love you like rain loves clouds
I love you out loud
I love you, I love you, I do
The roses are red because of you

They blame the garden on you
And curse the sky for being blue
They still blame it on you

They can wish to shoot down the wishing star
They'll never reach that far
No they won't
They can try to paint my life without you
But they'll never get through
Without knowing

I love you like rain loves clouds
I love you out loud
I love you, I love you, I do
You made these violets blue

I say the sky isn't gray
I love it this way
So let them blame all the beauty on you
You make it all seem true

They can wish to shoot down the wishing star
They'll never reach that far
No they won't
They can try to paint my life without you
But they'll never get through
Without knowing

I love you in roses red and violets blue
I love you, I love you, I do
I love you like rain loves clouds
Out loud
I love you out loud
I love you, I love you, I do
You are in everything and everything is you

Lyrics by: Elizabeth Azpurua

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Essence of the Atonement

it's too much for me to bare; how i care, it is frail
inside these walls of my being
i might as well have swallowed the essence of the Atonement
and choked my soul
and drugged my mind
for i still love you and i don't know how not to
this disease of yours is killing me tonight
but i can't not love you; i've tried, and tried, but how to?
you're the one thing that can ruin me in seconds
how can i stand strong against you?
i don't want to have to
i want to hold you
and hold you all here
i am tired of pain
and the shame
and the scars
and the endless destruction plaguing now
can i mend these broken minds?
can we erase the wrong of time?
do i, do i know how to at all?
this love just kills me slow; and i won't know, oh no
until i take my last breath
but I feel like I swallowed the essence of the Atonement
and i am drowning in it
won't forsake you now
i love you and don't know how not to
but it hurts
like nothing before

9/21/11