Battle For My Sky

The flower in the meadow holds me
like dewdrops on the petals
I am bound here
Flight
is what I seek
The moment to escape on wings upward
embracing sky
and dancing through the clouds of
this world
but soon
inside this lonely meadow here
there comes a shadow and steals my sun
A stormcloud of pollution
The massacre of acid rain
and loss
How I pray the sun shall win
this battle for my sky
or else beneath this storm death
shall I meet
and end the hopes of my flight
Grasping petals here I battle
wind and rain
and through the struggle find
that somehow the sun breaks free
and the light
the savior of my wings
giving hope in rays of joy
causing the rain to cease and the thunder
to silence in the wind
and still this meadow here
in solitude
until I take wing
and escape from here


Words by: Elizabeth Azpurua
Inspired by: Alex Bach

9/28/10

Cardinal

Cardinal, cardinal, tell me the reason
tell me the why and sing me a season
bring forth the rain on colors of gold
inside the richness bring oranges bold
When all this mess is hurting my soul
take back the wrong; make me whole
I'll watch from windows while you sing
offering to me hope born on a wing
Cardinal, cardinal tell me why life is
and why I can never, ever be his
I want the colors to explain to me why
In reds and golds and oranges high
Let them give words to the music you bring
Cardinal, cardinal bring love on a wing

By Elizabeth Azpurua

Lighthouse, Keep the Cargo on the Boat Safe

"Cargo"

push the boat out to sea
it's holding cargo
cargo dear to me
push the hopes towards a dream
it's holding futures
futures I did see
push the boat into the sea
it's holding love
love escaped from me
push the wishes towards one thing
but bring it home
home safely
push the boat into the sea
it's holding cargo
cargo dear to me
push the hopes towards a dream
and let it bloom across
across the sea

9/25/10

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"Your Lighthouse"

you left to go and it's a stormy place
don't be afraid for I am always near
when it's dark I will be the light
and when you want to come back home just follow me
I will shine no matter day no matter anything that could come along
I will be the light leading you along
you left and I will miss your pretty face
don't you fret for I'm not leaving here
when it's stormy I will be the light
when you want to come back home please follow me
I will shine no matter rain no matter anything that could stop me
I will be here always, always shining
I will no leave until you arrive safely

9/25/10

By Elizabeth Azpurua

Love

it's when you know the end is not coming
it's when glass slippers are shards cutting you open
it's when the air is making it hard to breathe
it's when your grief encompasses an ocean
it's when the moment that you wake each day
is drenched in pain each way
you move your mouth
it's when all the agony you feel inside
cannot hope to hide
and it escapes your mouth
it's when the tears no longer matter
it's when the days blend all the same
it's when your happily ever after
becomes a mockery of lame
someone tell me where is it?
where does it linger and go?
it eats away inside your ribcage
and burns straight through your soul
it's when nothing makes you whole
it's when you cannot hold upright
it's when you're sobbing out your eyes
it's when you hate the day that dawns
and it's when you realize...
...it makes you strong

It's more nonsense

poems are all nonsense when the words don't mean a thing
when my mind is full of screams
and the air is emptyness
I wanted solace to comfort me and hold me close
not this absence
take back this absence
there were spiders in the webs inside my memories
building highways across my dreams
and the acrid taste upon my tongue
was her forgetful name
such a plain Jane name
there isn't music in the corners anymore
and not a sight to see
no blue moons to wish upon
no more songs for me to sing
there are elbows in my ribs and feet kicking me once down
there is a cage with my name on it
and a solitary crown
and you say "why oh why are you sad?
why oh why are you mad?"
like the questions have answers I could give
I say "here is the end of my rope just take it back
because it broke
what use is it now?" I already fell
there were broken bits of me along the road you never
wanted to traverse across
so claim the loss
Autumn is coming with the leaves of change and I'm turning the other way
poems are nothing of love
and nothing of life
nothing of sense
and nothing of the strife that I have born
I'm all a mess now
holding onto reminders of hope
and reminders of what still can be
I'm just so tired of my words having no meanings
so tired of censoring
and lying
of hiding
tell them now
tell them loud
and shut the door
sit down alone in the middle of my floor
and write again

Moon Bird

"Broken Winged Bird"


tragedy in white
walks alone at night
sings a song of sorrow
like a broken winged bird
tragedy in white
sings alone at night
like a lonely sparrow
a solitary broken bird
tragedy in white
little lonesome night
sings a song of sorrow
like a broken winged bird


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"Capture the Moon"


capture the moon, my friend
the moon is leaving you
take a glance upwards
and steal your soul
capture the moon, my friend
she is drifting away from you
lift your eyes heavensward
and take back your soul
capture the moon, my friend
her light a beacon for you
take your face skywards
and reclaim your soul
capture the moon, capture her
take her and follow the night
for when the dawn comes she leaves again
and the world becomes too bright
capture the moon, capture the moon
take back your soul, reclaim it soon
she will leave er dawn comes
capture the moon, my friend
before the night ends again




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moon bird, moon bird
fly away
fly oh fly oh fly away
moon bird, moon bird
the coming day
is dawning, dawning, dawning day
moon bird, moon bird
free to play
each night, starlight, fly away
moon bird, moon bird
the dawning day
fly oh fly oh fly away


By elizabeth azpurua
9/12/10

Some Days Are Days We'll Never Forget

there are days we remember
days we forget
days we hold dear
and days we'll never let
days we celebrate
and days we morn in tears
days we come to hate
days we mark all the years
there are days we remember
and days living on forever
but the days we recollect upon
should never, ever be forgotten
some days are days we'll just never forget


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"Red, White and Blue"

For the red, and the white, and the blue
For the calling home for you
For the feelings of love
hope, courage and faith
For the red, and the white, and the blue
For standing for what is true
For the feelings of pride
freedom, strength, and peace
For the red, and the white, and the blue
For holding onto you
For the flag that means
love, strength, courage, faith and peace



By Elizabeth Azpurua
September 11, 2010

Hello Autumn

mold your soul to the telephone pole
and leave your shoes in the dirt on the road
summer is leaving and sunlight decreasing
hello autumn
and hello gold
ditch your sandals for boots and for laces
here comes the cool air and the fun
mold your soul to the telephone pole
the leaves will be falling and ravens are cawing
the autumn horn is blowing while you wait
goodbye summer
goodbye old
ditch your sundresses for coats and leggings
here comes the cool air and the fun
mold your soul to the telephone pole
children will parade down here in masks
and upturn the pumpkins and bring on the ale
this is autumn folks, so beware
hello autumn
fun and cool air

Begin the Madness All Over Again

i remember those times i wished you were here

remember those days when it was easy

it was smiles, laughter and stories

and nothing of lust

and nothing like this love

and nothing of pain, or regret, or this wanting

nothing of this madness

i remember those times i wished i could change it

remember wanting to make your life easy

bring you smiles, laughter, and hope

and drown out the pain

bring you more than love

take away all the agony, the hurt and the longing

prevent all the madness

i remember those times where my eyes were opened

remember them seeing and nothing was easy

between the smiles, laughter, and joy

there was so much pain

and caused by too much love

couldn't escape the ache, the need, and the wishing

it became my madness

i remember those times where i had screamed in hurt

remember when nothing ever would be easy

where you stole my smiles, laughter, and life

drowned me inside pain

broke all of my love

and left only grief, regrets and the screaming

swallowed in madness

i remember those times where i felt not a thing

remember the false sense of how it was easy

i was fake smiles, false laughter and glee

silently suffering pain

broken due to this love

battling aching, the need and the hating

shadowed in madness

i remember those times where i broke free of it

remember letting go of the hate made it easy

finally we were smiles, laughter and a truce

locked away the lust

but holding onto the love

letting go of pain, regrets, and wondering

we can end the madness

i remember it all now as i pause to think

remember how i assumed it'd be easy

but my smiles, my laughter and strength

are battling silent pain

and the need for more love

holding onto this want, this regret and the hoping

i begin the madness

all over again

Oil Spill Inside Me

Inject seaweed and saline in my veins
and replace the tar water here
the spillage in my system
poison, slime, unclear
is stagnant
and slowly killing me


By Elizabeth Azpurua on 8/27/10

Moth Thimble Fulls

"Thimble Fulls"

It eats at you, I know
You just can't let it go
It becomes like the air you breathe
Takes the place of everything you need
And it slowly, slowly
kills you
in inches
and thimble fulls
It tears you apart, I know
I have felt that way, I know
It's in every waking thought
and it's taking you a part
Drowning you slowly
killing you
in inches
and thimble fulls
Just wait, just wait, just wait
'til it's worse
It's breaks, aches and pains
beyond your hurt
And so you'll know in slowly increments
this pain inside you kills
and you will feel it in inches
and thimble fulls of your skin
I know the pain of this
It eats at you, I know
Darling, somehow let this go

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"Moth"

I hate that moth
hate it's wings
it's movements
and the strings
it flies upon
I hate that moth
I hate it bad
I want to kill the moth so bad
I hate it's wings
it's colors
and the strings
it flies upon
I hate the moth that gravitates
towards the light
I hate the moth because it flies
I hate the moth, it doesn't die
I hate the moth and it's pearly white
wings
I hate the moth and it's fluttery
it's movements
and the strings
it flies upon
But the moth comes everytime
the light goes on
I want to catch it
become the spider
Let me eat it
I want to end it
I hate the moth so bad, so very bad
It won't go away
everytime the light
...turns on

by Elizabeth Azpurua

Leave Them Behind

heroes inside of the picture frames

they whisper while you walk by

and if you should ask them

why they all cry

they'll tell you you're leaving them behind

echoes follow down the staircase

and they call to you walking away

and if you should hear them

you'd hear them say

they had all the hopes stacked high for you

and somehow they all tumbled down

I was the decider and heard them too late

and the echoes all faded away

if I had stayed long enough to hear them

I would have heard what they'd say

They said don't, don't, don't

walk away

there are hopes to the sky and don't you dare wonder why

don't, don't don't

don't you forget to pray

there are millions of voices that will never voice thanks if you do

if you do

leave them behind

stupid, stupid, stupid

there were heroes in picture frames

whispering as you walked by

but you never asked them

no, never asked them why

they all cried

echoes followed you down the staircase

and they called to you walking away

but you never heard them

or heard what they said

there were hopes stacked high for you

and they tumbled down behind you

crying

don't, don't, don't

walk away

don't, don't, don't

forget to pray

there are millions of voices that will never voice thanks if you ...

leave them behind

but I was the decider

and stupid, that choice was mine



By Elizabeth Azpurua on 8/29/10

Say My Name

you said, Elizabeth
don't walk away
and I won't
told me you'd never leave, never ever, ever go
and I was an idiot
and thought you were true
and you chose another to love
something I would never do

They've called me baby, and darling, honey, and love
Lizzy, and Ellie, and Liz, and then hun
I've been sweetie and babe and sugar and doll
and lover and enchantress and once been called dove
But no one said it quite like you
and you never meant it, did you?

you said, Elizabeth
I'll be here within these five
and now look at you
told me you'd hold me, and save me, and be there
and here I assumed
thinking it could be true
but you've got another life
and I do not want you

So I can be baby, and darling, honey and love
Some call me Lizzy, and Ellie, Liz and hun
I will be sweetie, and babe, and sugar and doll
lover, enchantress, and maybe once again dove
And someone will say it better than you
and they will actually mean what is true

By Elizabeth Azpurua
8/29/10

We Became the Madness

bathing in milkweed
and ashes
taking time
and breaking time
sipping on toothpaste
and mangos
loosing your mind
as I've lost mine
and terrible like the magics
inside of this wilderness
I am cowering inside of a cornfield
and feeling helplessness
became the madness
making paper dolls
calling them my friends and asking them to call
became the madness
making newspaper shoes
walking over quicksand holding the images of you
you're bathing in milkweed
and I am the ashes
you lost your mind
as I've lost mine
we became the madness
and use plastic spoons as wings to fly
walking through a cornfield thinking we are living life

by elizabeth a.

Past Childhood Love

"Twilight Love"


Irrevocable
Bright and yet unattainable
Chase the setting sun
and find the edge of day
Inconceivable
Contrite and irreversible
Seek the rainbow's end
and find the edge of day
Irrational
Fight this unexplainable
need for finding love
at the edge of day




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"The Past"


Bear me away into the memories of
summer heat and cotton sheets
the imagery of youthful fun
and the feeling as we ran
Remind me of the happiness and
times we played together free
with the grass fresh cut and
happier were the days we
used to be apart of


8/26/10


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"Childhood"


Space, clouds, sailboats
and wings
Swords, tales, mirrors
and dreams
Roads, hikes, pillows
and swings
Love, lust, memories
and screams
Childhood changes
everything




By Elizabeth Azpurua

Because I'm Addicted to You I'm Weak

"Weakness"

i let you bring me down
to watch me drown
and let me down, down
i let you jerk me around
gagged and bound
you spun me around, around
i let you pull me away
from the only thing i ever needed
i let you push me off the edge
and shattered and broken
i pleaded
why did i let you bring me down?
you watched me drown
and let me down and down
why did i let you jerk me around?
i was gagged and bound
spinning around and around
i let you take me away
from the life i'd made myself
letting you tear me apart
and i know i was better than
my broken heart
and how this felt

8/24/10

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"Hallucinogen"

your presence is clinging like cancer
addicted like you're a drug
i am like following a shadow
hallucinogen and
i am fading
away
your essence twirling like a dancer
across my eyes bewitching
like i'm mesmerized
hallucinogen and
i am overdosing
on you
seeing lies and lies of you

8/25/10

Both by me

Wake Me tomorrow in Paradise

"Dream-maker"

It's late and I'm awake, oh Mr. Dream-maker

Take the silt and sand from my eyes

And take me to your world of paradise

It's 2 a.m. and I can't sleep, my Dream-maker

Take the ash and soot from my bed

Take me wear you lay your head

I wanna sleep by you

Wanna wake in my dreams with you

Wanna spend the night beside you

and wake tomorrow there with you

Wake, wake, wake me when we leave

Take, take, take me when I sleep

It's passed 2 in the morning Dream-maker

Take the dust and cobwebs from the night

And wake me when the world is sunny bright

It's far too late and I'm here my Dream-maker

Take the air and scent it with happiness

I want to see your world and decompress

I wanna sleep by you

Wanna wake in my dreams with you

Wanna spend the night beside you

and wake tomorrow there with you

Won't you wake, wake, wake me when we leave?

Take me there, take me when we sleep

Let's just together close our eyes

Wake me tomorrow in paradise

Hello Mr. Dream-maker come lay beside me

Wake, wake, wake me when leave

Take, take, take me with you please

By Elizabeth Azpurua 8/25/10

I Can't Breathe

i'm sinking slowly
slowly down
try to keep my head high
try to keep my smile bright
i'm feeling everything collapsing now
stop me
i'm doomed
take me on a one way plane to somewhere else
take me for a day to escape as somebody else
take me far away from here and this changing rain
it's making all this pain, there's too much pain
and i...
...can't breathe
i'm sinking slowly dead
dying now
trying to keep myself intact
and not turn and look back
i'm feeling the walls crumble down
stop me please
i am doomed
take me on a one way plane somewhere else
take me for a day to escape as somebody else
take me far away from here, everything is changing
and the pain is overwhelming, so overwhelming
and i...
...can't breathe
i am dying
and no one knows
how i'm crying
no, no, no, no
i am sinking
sinking down into an abyss
somebody end this
take me for a day on a one way plane
let me escape all the pain
take me for a day to become somebody else
gotta get away from all the stress
save me from this changing rain
it washes all the hopes away
and drowns me in pain
i'm sinking slowly
slowly down
tried to keep my head high
and to keep my smile bright
but everything is collapsing now
and it's tearing me down
i'm doomed
take me on a one way plane to somewhere else
take me for a day to escape as somebody else
take me far away from here and this changing rain
i have to flee from all this pain, this overwhelming pain
because i...
...can't breathe

Goodbye Wayfarer

"Wayfarer"


Wandering like a wayfarer
I seek you out,
I search about
Whimpering inside of me
asking
Where are you?
Traveling, I'm the wayfarer
I need you now
so I search around
Whispering hopes in me
Liberating
just to find you
I become the wayfarer
Seeking you out
Still looking now
Wishing here inside of me
Coalescing
now with you
now with you
I found you


8/21/10


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"No Goodbye"


Hello, goodbye
nothing inbetween?
Where are the times
and what does this mean?
Why have you gone without
a goodbye?
Why am I left asking empty air why?
Hello, farewell
no more to say
What ever happend to us
and why did it happen this way?
What made you leave giving
no farewell?
Left with this empty air feeling like hell
I ask
hello? goodbye?
no farewells and no hi's
and where have you gone?
Where did we go wrong?
Hello, goodbye
no more to say
Whatever happened to us
and what made it all this way?
What made you leave
giving no farewell?
Come back to me so we can end this right
...in a goodbye


8/21/10

By Elizabeth A

Another Mad Poem

"Madness for the Peacemakers"


pacifist
oh marvelor of infinity
the great madness
of the barrier reef
and solitude on the moon
collector
of the charms we seal our
demise upon
and the silt in the bottom
of the endless pond
we shall drown the broken in
heartbeats
like the echoes in the senseless cave
dwelling of the imovable rage
like the wishers all gave pinecones
for their hearts
and bled out on the steps
of the cathederal walls


8/16/10

Caviar and Winter Palaces

"Caviar and Winter"


you're like breast milk and honey
good for a time
but not enough to sustain
you're like springtime
beautiful, but lacking
the wisdom of age
I guess I'm caviar and winter
sharp, bitter, and strange
exquisite to someone
with impeccable tastes


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"Traversed Palaces"

plucking from the music on my soul
memories
musings
and the tales I've not told
the essence of juniper
and moldings in gold
tile work and frescoes
and walls aged in stone
tissues
bring them and play me my rhymes
ask for the ladies who
danced in those times
and settle for nothing but tapestries
to see
the medieval workmanship of they
who knew how things could be
Amber and scarlet
and brocades in deep folds
and sheerest, of dearest, upon me they hold
the audience magnified by the mirrors in gilt
for I traversed palaces
and forgot all of it



all by me