Begin the Madness All Over Again

i remember those times i wished you were here

remember those days when it was easy

it was smiles, laughter and stories

and nothing of lust

and nothing like this love

and nothing of pain, or regret, or this wanting

nothing of this madness

i remember those times i wished i could change it

remember wanting to make your life easy

bring you smiles, laughter, and hope

and drown out the pain

bring you more than love

take away all the agony, the hurt and the longing

prevent all the madness

i remember those times where my eyes were opened

remember them seeing and nothing was easy

between the smiles, laughter, and joy

there was so much pain

and caused by too much love

couldn't escape the ache, the need, and the wishing

it became my madness

i remember those times where i had screamed in hurt

remember when nothing ever would be easy

where you stole my smiles, laughter, and life

drowned me inside pain

broke all of my love

and left only grief, regrets and the screaming

swallowed in madness

i remember those times where i felt not a thing

remember the false sense of how it was easy

i was fake smiles, false laughter and glee

silently suffering pain

broken due to this love

battling aching, the need and the hating

shadowed in madness

i remember those times where i broke free of it

remember letting go of the hate made it easy

finally we were smiles, laughter and a truce

locked away the lust

but holding onto the love

letting go of pain, regrets, and wondering

we can end the madness

i remember it all now as i pause to think

remember how i assumed it'd be easy

but my smiles, my laughter and strength

are battling silent pain

and the need for more love

holding onto this want, this regret and the hoping

i begin the madness

all over again