Built Sleep

"Sleep"

Rest your head by the sea
Sleep, oh sleep away from me
Near the city of Angels
Rest your weary head
and dream
Come tomorrow dawn the day with hope and laughter
Come tomorrow brighter, better and here after
We will look back upon these days
and know how much has changed
for the better
Rest those eyes
Sleep and please realize
As you're near the great Pacific
Rest your weary head
near the ocean tides
Come tomorrow dawn the day with hope and laughter
Come tomorrow, brighter, better for here after
We can look back upon these days
and know all that has changed
for the better
So, sleep, sleep, sleep and enjoy dreams
I will sleep here near mountain streams
You near the grandest of oceans, rest your eyes
I will sleep away from you but I realize
Come tomorrow dawns a new day with hope and laughter
Tomorrow will be brighter and better for here after
We will look back upon all these days
and know how much has changed
and it's better


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"Built"

I was built to listen and to think
You might have been built to make me sink
You might have been built to break down my walls
You might have been built to drown out my calls
But I was built to stand with a light
You were built with brilliant eyes for sight
So use your eyes and if you would like to follow me
I was built to be a beacon and placed by your sea
You were built to carry the weight in your vessel
You were built with troubles for you to wrestle
I was built to say I'm here to be your guide
You were built to last and I'm still on your side
I was built to listen and I'm lonely
I was built to shine and sometimes to sing
You might have been built to try to break me apart
But you were built to make me try harder to use my heart
I was built to say all that is true
You were built for bravery in what you do
I was built to be a guide right here
Built strong and steady with a purpose clear

Rain, stone, ashes and a flag for love

The rain is falling on the roof here
and I alone
not thinking clear
wish simply to
be held be you
but I do fear
a heart of stone
inside your chest; if I come near

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"Ashes"

I am like spectre haunting these walls within
My whole perception seems so very grim
I was hoping for an unbroken heart
This never seems to be my way
It's always ashes
I am choking on the wishes spilling from my lips
Thinking of what might have happened with a kiss
I am realizing broken hearts kill
This is the way of things
It's always ashes
I am wandering lost inside like I'm floating
I can't grasp the life without hurting
I see my broken heart behind my eyes
There is never a chance for me
It's always ashes

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"Fly A Flag of Love"

Photographs can't bring it back
Can't make it right
Can't bring the glad
So I will hold high aloft
This flag for you
To say I love
I will march the road alone
Until you come back home
I will, banner in hand, sing your name
and carry photographs each day
I can't feel the joy like I did
Or feel the glad things, but
I will fly a flag for you
To say I love
I will walk the road on my own
Until you come back home
I will, banner in hand, sing your name
and I hope you'll do the same

By Elizabeth Azpurua

You Are...

reckless
radiant
you are divine
but you are the error
and the right
stubborn
and hopeless
you are the grace
and the martyr
and the error
transcendent
marked my soul
prideful
and never whole
you are divine
but the error
and the right
you are the wish
the wrong
and the relief
the echo
and mirror
the prayer
and the belief
you are the wisdom
you are the pain
the majesty
and healing rain
you are the debtor
the disease
the healing
and the ease
you are the magic
and the marveling
you are simple
and still
and yet all encompassing
you are the reason
you're divine
and you are all and yet
so far behind
you are the way
the stumbling block
you are the day
that rises and the
end of the clock
you are the light
and you are the tunnel
the music
the rhyme and
the thunder
you are the spacious
and the descending
the closed and
transcending
you are divine
the marvel
the masterpiece
benevolence
and beauty
you are quick
and the patient
the error
and the right
you are all that is wrong
and wicked
and everything done right
you are the wishful
the wonder
and the way
you are divine
reckless
radiant
hopeless
and with time
gracious and
magnificent
you're the divine
you are echo
and mirror
and master
and life
you are the reason
for all the madness
in my life

Broken Destiny

Destiny was callin' and I answered it
I did my part, every last bit
I came down hard on these knees of mine
Broke them a couple quick fallen times
You had me crashin' and burnin' in love
'Til all my reasons where not holdin' up

You chained me to a broken bedpost
Broke my heart, my pride and my resolve
I was empty handed, tied, and left there to cry
With one thousand problems more to solve

Destiny was callin' and I turned to follow it
I kept on goin' and I almost made it
I came down hard on my knees on a road
Muddy, and twisted and I had an overload
It's all this damn love you left me burnin' in
Couldn't catch my breath and I couldn't begin

You chained me to a broken bedpost
Broke my heart, my pride and my resolve
I was empty handed, tied and left there to cry
With one thousand problems more to solve
You kept addin' more with your burnin' me in love
I could never win this war I would just give up

Destiny was callin' and I had to walk away
My legs broke and heart in pieces from the longest way
You don't care the way that I wish you did
But you left me, left me, you left me burnin'

You chained me to a broken bedpost
Broke my heart, my pride and my hope
I was empty handed, tied and tears stained me
You had been the one thing I thought was destiny

Poem to Darwin

Darwin, you said, we could evolve
Tell me Mister, how do I heal a broken heart?
You said that we adapt to be a better species
But I seem to keep having the same disease

It's called love and it is crippling
Can't I get a fin or some gills?
Inside of this emotion I am drowning
I don't think you know, but this kills

Darwin, did you ever love somebody?
Did you feel like you needed a new pair of wings?
Tell me Mister, can you make a stronger heart?
I wish I had an extra one I could take apart

This thing is love and it's breaking me
Can't I get a fin or some gills?
Inside of this emotion I am drowning
It really sucks because this thing kills

Darwin, Mister, I think you don't understand
You think we can grow parts and feathers and hands
You think I can evolve from a broken heart?
If I try real hard maybe I might have a jump start

One day we will be part machine and not feel a thing
One day we will be stone cold and never age into old
One day we will be invincible and it's inconceivable
But one day maybe we won't feel this thing called love gone bad

Love is a disease and it's crippling me
Can't I get and fin and some gills?
Love is just nearly drowning me
This thing is something that just kills

Darwin, you said we could evolve
But why didn't you discover this can't be solved?
I'm sorry, Mister, but I think you had it wrong
Love was created so we'd never be that strong

by Elizabeth Azpurua

1/22/12

Truth, You Are No Friend of Mine

Truth, you are no friend of mine
You are not honest, nor are you kind
You burn me down in your lies
Truth, you are no friend of mine

I have burned at your scoffing words
Down in flames you engulfed my world
Truth, you might as well have never let me
Even try to hold myself above your lies

Truth, you are no friend of mine
You are not honest, nor are you kind
You burn me down in your lies
Truth, you are no friend of mine

I have been belittled and beguiled by you
Here, I had thought you would be real, Truth
But no, you let me die in my burning anger
I cannot see through all your lies

Truth, you are no friend of mine
You are never honest nor ever kind
You keep burning me in all your lies
You were never, ever a friend of mine

So let me down easy, slow, let me down
Stop this suffering now
Truth, won't you let me go now?
You just want to watch me burn down

Truth, you are no friend of mine
You are not honest, you are not kind
You tricked me well with your disguise
But Truth, you were never a friend of mine
Truth, you are no friend of mine

By Elizabeth Azpurua

1/18/12

My Rope is Strong?

"Strong"

I don't have to give a reason for the reason for my actions
I don't have to have a meaning for the meaning of my love
I don't need to hear a lecture of how I've done it wrong
So seal your lips, I don't care, so long
I don't want to want another more than how I want you
I don't like to like the way you run and hide the way you do
But it's comical and I must laugh at how you do it wrong
So read my lips, I don't care, I'm strong
Strong enough to tell you I'm not bending
Nor am I breaking down my walls
I am stronger than all your questions and I know that I'm not wrong
I know who I am and why I am
I know what I need and why I need
I know who I want and I will want it no matter what you say
So keep running
Keep asking
Keep trying to stop me now
I am what I am and what I am is not backing down

1/18/12

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"My Rope"

knotted, torn, shredded, burned
frayed and tattered and stained in blood
it's dangling, and it's a sad sight
I hung myself with this intention to do the right
This rope is my ending
This rope I had left
I clung to with a knot and a knot and a knot
I had tried to resist the fall
I held on for oh, so long
but this broken rope has done me wrong
knotted, torn, shredded, burned
frayed and tattered it's stained in blood
I am dangling, and it's all so sad now
Here I thought I could hang on to this broken thing
My ending
My ending
I clung to the rope with a knot and a knot and a knot
I had tried to hard to hang on
I held on for oh, so long
but my rope has done me wrong


1/15/12

Take it All

I try to write happy songs
try to write happy poems
try to write stories with hope

I tried to be happy girl
full of hope for a better world
but I can't anymore

Take it all, take it all with you
Break me apart, I cannot stop you
You have me all, all of me, you do
It's been you for so long, it's been you

I try to be positive
and write of goodness
and write of the better days

I try to be an upbeat girl
for the betterment of my world
but I can't lie anymore

Take it all, take it all for you
Break me apart 'cuz I won't stop you
You have me all, all of me, you still do
It's been you all along, it's been you

I am bruised and scarred and you mended me
Than you tore me apart and you ended me
Then you pulled me back to a better me
So you could break me, break this new me

Take me all, take me all for you
Break me again since I can't stop you
You have me all, all of me, you always do
It's been you this long, it's been you

I try to write happy words
happy poems
of happy girls
I try to write to be good

I try to be a hopeful girl
to enlighten my whole world
but it's a lie inside anymore
I am over now for you

Is the Bird Elizabeth?

"Elizabeth"

Bashful, was a face I knew not
I can't place my illusions
of being superior
I cared not, haughty and high handed
I was branded with a grief
born of lies
I would walk on by and glance their way
not caring who's faces I passed
There was nothing to stop me or make me stay
I would not look around
I was ornery
Timid, never a trait of mine
I would take on the world like a General
These illusions I held to were mine
to make me stronger
Yet here you are, stripped me bare in a word
You opened your mouth
to my knees, from that sound I heard
Mister, you have nerve, to bring me down
You have nerve to stop me
Who are you with your hot tempered charm?
I am no fool, you see
Sultry, these eyes of mine have captivated
I led them along like little toys
I did not care, for my illusions held me aloft
but then, you stripped me bare
You laid me out like all I was not
Showed me how weak my armor was
My little friend, called vengeance, could not touch you
you're unstoppable
I hated the fact you made me weak
I hated this vulnerable side of me
How can a man stop me with a glance
and let me know he sees right through me?
Stupid boy, I've no time for your charades
I am not a game playing girl
And yet you crook your finger then to tell me where I erred
and I am annoyed by your stance
So, I primp my hair, and I bat these eyes
I wear my pearls but try in vain
You glance my way, and I might as well be wearing
the garb of a little child
in fairy pink and glittered toes
I do not feel powerful or sophisticated
I feel quite bashful and shy
Oh, why, oh why, am I suddenly so weak in your gaze?
What have you done to me?
Then, I am transformed
Beneath your eyes I am more than I could ever be
No walls, no airs, no facades to hide behind
I am all I am and more and that is fine
You Mister, you're a Master of me
You call the shots with your finger crooked
You make me see I am powerful, by being vulnerable and being
all of me, splendid me
I am ever greater, stronger and beautiful underneath your glance and
in your words
your uttered word
that word that changes how I look at me
The word, the word, the word....is....

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"Death of a Bird"

Little bird on the pavement is dying slowly
You see her there and think to care too slowly
You figure nothing can help and why dirty your hands?
You leave that little bird there and say it's out of your hands
So, she lays alone and watches the leaves fall
So, she lays alone and watches the rain fall
She is cold and her feathers are drenched
She is shaking and in fear she is drenched
How you left her to die is so cruel and wrong
I know you'll never admit that you're wrong
She is just a bird you say just a dead bird now
Yet she died a slow death; how does it feel now?
Little bird on the pavement is a dead little thing
You had walked right on by this tragic thing
Her feathers are fading to fragile bones
Hollow, broken, kicked aside bones
You walked on by
You walked on by

By Elizabeth Azpurua

I miss a lot lately....

"I Miss it All"

I miss those mornings, crisp and early
and the dew
I miss the green grass and the autumn leaves
and I miss you
I miss the smells of breakfast cooking
and the smell of pages turning
and the sounds of birds chirping
and the feel of kitty fur
I miss the laughter and I recall
all the tears and how they'd fall
I miss the drive and I miss the road
I miss the way it winded and wove
I miss the puddles, creeks, and all the scenes
like the clouds and blooming flowers of spring
I miss the summer heat and whirling fans
I miss the smell of horses and hay
I miss it all
It all, it all, it all
What more can I say?
I miss the youthfulness and the learning
the music, I'm still yearning
I miss the cardinals and the hummingbirds
I miss it all, have you heard?
I miss the rain how it fell like a waterfall
I miss the snow how it came like a wonderland
I miss the dogs and I miss the cat''s call
I miss the warmth and I don't understand
I miss those times and I don't know why they've gone
Did I do something wrong?
I miss the way I smiled and the way I let go
I missed the stories and how I'd always know
I guess at times life must change it seems
Why did it change at all?
I miss it all, it all, it all
I do, indeed

Why Didn't You Come?

I am cold and it's quiet and the sound is my own
I am missing all the reasons I could name off
The reasons to keep your blue eyes in my mind
But all those reasons slowly, slowly die
You should have came
Why didn't you come?
There's so much pain
and look what's been done
You should have been here long ago
And I waited, and waited, oh
You should have came
Why didn't you come?
I don't think this can be undone
I am alone and it's quiet and it's chilly
I am sitting humming my own song
Everything that used to keep you in my dreams
it has up and left and I don't think of these things
You didn't come
You should have came
Look what's been done
So much pain
You should have been here long ago
And I waited, and waited, oh
You didn't come
You should have came
And I don't recall your name
I see blue eyes I see nothing
I am forgetting it all
You should have come sooner you see
because I'm losing it all
I am cold and alone and it's quiet in here
Thinking of why I am without you
You didn't come
You should have came
Look what's been done
it's such a shame

I Miss You

Yesterday, I had a story to tell
come today, I had two more
I have all these things bursting out from me
but I can't tell you
You don't need me to

You got your own days and your own ways
Your own problems and solutions
You got your own stories you can tell
I cannot tell mine well

So, I go on trying, but I'm failing sometimes
I want to tell you little things that are on my mind
But I let them go...
Because I know
you don't need them
Even though
I want to show
that I'm missing

I am missing you, no matter, no matter
what I do
I am missing you with eyes wide open
I am missing you when I sleep and when I dream
I just want to talk
but I can't speak

Yesterday, there was something I meant to say
but come the time it seemed to have slipped my mind
I have all these moments I would like to share
but I don't tell you
you don't need me to

You go through your days different from my ways
Dealing with problems with new solutions
You got your own stories and you share them well
but mine, I rarely ever tell

So, I go on smile on my face and tell you the funny things
but only the big, important ones do I ever bother repeating
I let the others go...
Because I know
you don't want them
Even though
I need to show
that I'm missing

I am missing you, no matter, no matter
what I do
I am missing you with eyes wide open
I am missing you when I sleep and when I dream
I just want to talk
but I can't speak
No, I can't speak

So, I try to hide the fact that I miss you
I try to share the only things you want me to
But all these little silly things that come to mind
they get forgotten for all of time

Yesterday, I had a dream of you
I didn't share it
it wasn't important
Yesterday, I heard from you
You seem happy
I'm glad you're happy
Yesterday, I had a horrible day
But I didn't tell you
You didn't need me to
Yesterday, I couldn't write stories
this is not like me
but I am missing

I am missing you, no matter, no matter
what I do
I am missing you with eyes wide open
I am missing you when I sleep and when I dream
I just want to talk to you
but I can't speak to you
No, I can't speak to you
but I miss you

By Elizabeth Azpurua

Do you see me when I see you? This is a bad game of Hide-and-Seek

"Hide-and-Seek Gone Wrong"

one, two, three
you count, i count
we seem to dance around this now
you know i know i know you know i do
i see inside your world and you see mine, too
so if you think that i play hide and seek
you are wrong i'm not counting so you'll peek
one, two, three
you count, i count down
until you can't count again when i close your mouth
i will wait behind the tree
and you won't see
you won't see me
one, two, three
you counted and found me
one, two, three
but i won.

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"I See You"

Bloody hands and a filthy stained dress
did you hide the shovel?
You wish to silence and oppress
and bend him over
Still the innocent or kill them
and silence all the cries
and burn down the signs pointing to your lies

But I see you, and I see right through
I know what you do and did and can do
I see you, and I'll still see through
I know what you play and why you're untrue

Dirty hands and a painted plastic mask
do you sneak through the halls?
You think you can burn all who ask
and stop your fall
Silence the accusers or ruin them
and break their reputations down
and blur out the words and end it all, you clown
captivate them with your trickery

But I see you and I see right through
I know what you do and did and can do
I see you, and I'll still see right through
I know what you play and why you're untrue

So go ahead and leave your trail behind
and hide and hide and hide
I see it all with my seeing eyes
Break he who points you out and I'll know
I'll know what you're about and it'll show
I see it all with my seeing eyes
and you cannot hide behind your lies

I see you and I see right through
Knowing what you do and did and can still do
I see you and will always see through
I know the games you play are all untrue

By elizabeth azpurua

And Winter Came

And winter came with a cold wind
and broke my heart three times again
I am fallen down into this darkened place
oh, how you kill my soul
I feel my hope go away
and gone........
And winter came and brought a song

With falling snow I lose my self
and try so hard to grow from you
You don't want me, what can I do?
Why am I not good enough for you?

And winter came and brought disease
this shadowed thing that follows me
This thing to kill called heartache
a broken heart is my mistake

I shall not feel, oh no, now numb
I shall not recover from what has been done
I know with this changing of seasons to cold
I shall wither and wander with bones of old

And winter came and came so wrong
and with it brought this eery song
And winter came and came it did
and with it came a cold, cold wind

I shall not feel, oh no, now numb
for what may be and what may come
I know with this new dawning day
is colder still and more come this way

Oh, winter came and brought with it
three times broken heart to bits
and broke me down to this darkened place
oh, how, how you kill my soul
I feel my hope is gone away
and gone......
and winter came and brought this song

With falling snow I'll bury myself
and try to break off from you
You don't want me, what else shall I do?
Oh, I am not good enough for you

I shall not feel, oh no, now numb
for my soul, my soul is so very done
And winter came and brought this deathly wind
a broken heart, broken three times again

12/24/11

Turtle Dove Singing of a Hopeless Love

Partridge in the pear tree, tell me, tell me
Where has Cardinal gone?
Will he come back soon, I wonder?
Will his sojourn be long?
Sometimes birds have to fly away during winter
Maybe this place is too cold?
Will you wait here with me, Partridge?
I need someone to hold
I am just a turtle dove, waiting on the rain
but I fear the snow will come before I can say
"Spring is a new day, hello, hello Spring"
but I can't sing that welcoming song when the snow is on the way
Perhaps, I'll sing alone
Perhaps you'll leave me too
Cardinal has gone far away
and I don't know what to do
I have a nest to keep and I have a song to sing
the mourning song of wintertime
I am just a turtle dove singing of a hopeless love
and you're stuck in that pear tree
Do you, do you think it'll be OK come spring?
Do you, do you think I'll have a welcoming song to sing?
I am hoping for the rain...but there's snow on the way
Partridge, my feathered friend, how shall we weather on?
I am still singing a forgotten lonesome song
Do you think Cardinal will return to these trees?
I am hoping winter will somehow soon leave
I am just a turtle dove singing of a hopeless love
and you're just a partridge in a tree
Cardinal is a striking bird and he's flown from you and me
But maybe he'll return once I sing to welcome spring

by Elizabeth Azpurua

Christmas Poems

"The Reason"

'Tis the season to be jolly
with garlands and with holly
with boughs of evergreen and the smell of cinnamon
You ring in the new year with the ending of a season
a season in which we all give
It's the music and the laughter
the joys and the here after
the tales you tell of Christmas past
It's the giving of the season and the knowing what's the reason
It's not Mr. Saint Nicholas himself
No, not that jolly old elf
It's a baby born so long ago
in a stable that we'll never know
Oh, so humble in the starting
to carry such a following
and though it was not around yuletide
we still celebrate it at this time
It's become a day for sharing and merry making
A day for love and for joy
It's not boxes of shiny wrappings or toys or silly gifts
Oh, it is far, far more than all of this
We all celebrate for different reasons and hold to our unique traditions
We all hold onto our inner child
So, be happy and be merry and wish tidings of great joy
for the birth of a Savior, a sweet innocent young boy


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"Christmas Wish"

I wish each Christmas for the same thing
Have I found it ever beneath the tree?
No, it's a magical thing never wrapped
and once you find it there's no turning back
Christmas, oh Christmas, I wish every time
and hold in my heart visions of the divine
Since I was little I wanted one thing
but it's never found beneath the tree
It won't be presented in ribbons or bows
and it's coming, well, no one knows
Christmas, oh Christmas, you come once a year
perhaps this time, my wish shall be clear

By Elizabeth Azpurua

My Song

City sounds drown me out
The whirring fans are too loud
The cars that are rushing by
they drown out my soul's cry

And still a soft sound I hear
Somewhere beyond my ears
I can barely make out the song that is mine
It is being overpowered by other lines

I hear the sound, I hear the melody
of what is real, of what is me
I almost know, I almost find
the words to sing for this song of mine
If only I could recall
the place I'd hear my call
and all the words I cannot know
I'd remember how they flow

Engines roar and people yell
Every voice has something to tell
All the lights carry a faint hum
and there goes my silent drum

Of what was me, what I'd march to
A battle hymn of what I can do
But all this time I feel the sound leave
Where are the words to what I believe?

I hear the sound, I hear the melody
of what is real, of what is me
I almost know, I almost find
the words to sing for this song of mine
If only I could recall
the place I'd hear my call
and all the words I cannot know
I'd remember how they flow

And I would sing the song of my destiny
The words created only for me
The path laid out in a melody
a tune to march to, my own beat

But all the world is a raucous noise
People screaming and rowdy girls and boys
I shall not hear my song this way
So I wander far, far, faraway

I hear the sound, I hear the melody
of what is real, of what is me
And how I'll know, and how I'll find
the words to sing for this song of mine
In quiet expanse I shall recall
Inside of nature I'll hear this call
and all the words I'll now know
and remember how they flow
My song of life and of destiny
The path laid out only for me
Inside the stillness of towering trees
The words to my song return to me

By: Elizabeth Azpurua