Great Wretched Hall

I can't speak beyond this cavern in my head
That's spewing out monsters that wish me dead
I am feeding the errors so they'll make me a wall
To grow over my memories like a great wretched hall
There's a battalion of hellions stampeding along
Marching through my thoughts in the throng
Shouting obscenities into the empty and echoing
Somebody drown them out I cannot think a thing

Silence them all
Shut them down
Build the wall higher all around
Drown them out
End their sound
Standing in this great wretched hall

I am wrong and I am bruised
My mind has become confused
Let's all say I have been abused
By all these monsters I've loosed

I can shout inside this cavern in my head
All these shadows are filling me with dread
I am watching all my errors construct my wall
Growing over all my memories like a great wretched hall
I hear the battalion of hellions marching along
Cascading their emotions on and on and on
Shouting obscenities into the empty and echoing
Somebody drown them out I cannot think a thing

Silence them all
Shut them down
Build the wall higher all around
Drown them out
End their sound
Standing in this great wretched hall

I am wrong and I am bruised
My mind has become confused
Let's all say I have been abused
By all these monsters I've loosed

Echoing and thunderous
Inside this gaping hole so cavernous
Wretched still and I am shutting down
Somebody come and drown out their sound
Stand a top all my errors piled on top this wall
And silence all the noise of this great wretched hall
Silence all the noise of this great wretched hall
Silence all the noise
Silence them all

By: Elizabeth Azpurua

Silenced Deep Down

"Deep Down"

One of these days

I’m going to explode

I don’t want to be here

When I battle against them

All of their chains upon me

All of their walls around me

They want to shun me now

Stuff me into a hole deep down

All of the illusionists there

They don’t happen to care

Where they spin their tales

Pervasive; hearts have failed

One of these days

I’m going to erupt

I don’t want to be here

When I wage war against them

All of their ropes upon me

And their fortress around me

They want to shut me out

Stuff me into a hole deep down

Saying I am an ailment in their side

Like a poison dart I’m opening wide

All of their false and wrong insides

Tell me why must we all hide?

Let it all out – I’m erupting

Time to call out this farce

Here I go now – exploding

Level them out; it’s sparse

Nothing left now that’s false

Bury ‘em down…

Or they will stuff me in hole deep down

1/9/15 

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“Silenced Songbird”

Am I diseased or crazy?

Perhaps I’m mad and touched

They never want to hear me

Tell me stand there and hush

They want to marvel at my beauty

But I mustn’t make a sound

When did it happen that the songbird

Cannot sing aloud?

Struck with envy

Struck with greed

They are yanking feathers off of me

And they want me – never freed

To be silent

Am I diseased or crazy?

Perhaps I’m a fool for all of them

They never want to hear me

They want me beautifully broken

I should like to sing so loud their ears bleed

They are sick with envy corrupted by greed

Plucking my feathers one by one

I am through with silence

I am done

1/14/15

By: Elizabeth Azpurua

Liquid Silence

"Liquid Fire"

Pin me down
and set fire to these bones
let it rage on
til I'm unknown
settle into me
and stifle all my moans
let it all go on
until I have shown
ecstasy
like liquid fire through my veins
purity
in form, no lies, no constrains
eruption in flames

by: Elizabeth Azpurua

5/16/14

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"Leave Me Be in Silence"

no such thing that i have known since then
shall tell me of what a man knows not
and when
when i know i'll tell you so
if every incantation formed by these lips
should stutter out the weight of all, of
all of this
i know not to make it so
my memories in my dreams are overun
and time tells nothing in my solitude
that i've begun
erasing what i knew
no such thing that i had known since then
or will or what i might have shown to
any men
i cannot make it so
leave me be
silence............silence is all i ask and no questions
he was there like a ghost; no illusions
no such thing that i have known since then
shall tell me of what they know not
and if
if i could tell it so
if every wish from my wishing lips
should have fallen with the weight of all,
of all of this
i may never make it, oh
my memories of him in dreams are overun
and time tells nothing in my solitude
that i've begun
erasing what i knew
in a bottle; no such thing i'll ever know again
or will or what i might know from any
other men
i cannot make it so
leave me be
in silence........silence

by: Elizabeth Azpurua
5/16/14

Ripped Friendship Flag

Why Friend, are you friends with my enemy?

Does that mean you are not the friend of me?

Does it mean you trade secrets like spies?

Does it mean you spill words as lies?

 

Why Friend, are you staring there at me?

What are you thinking looking at me hatefully?

Does it mean you no longer feel the same?

Does it mean you look away in shame?

 

Why are you so silent now?

What has happened and how?

Where does this leave us?

What happened to trust?

Why are you walking away?

What words will make you stay?

Shall I just let you go?

I do not know

I do not know

 

I tried so hard to sail this sinking ship

It's going down too fast

Just a friendship flag for a sail that has a rip

and I know that it won't last

 

Why Friend, are you friends with my enemy?

Does it mean you no longer care for me?

Does it mean you laugh behind my back?

Talking about everything that I lack?

 

Why Friend, are you bad mouthing me?

What are those words you keeping saying?

Does this mean nothing we had is worth it?

Are you walking away, did you quit?

 

Why are you so silent now?

What has happened and how?

Where does this leave us?

What happened to trust?

Why are you walking away?

What words will make you stay?

Shall I just let you go?

I do not know

I do not know

I tried so hard to sail this sinking ship

It's going down too fast

Just a friendship flag for a sail that has a rip

and I know that it won't last

There's a storm out there tearing us apart

too many waves crashing 'round

and I am sinking with my broken heart

while you never make a sound

 

Why are you so silent now?

What has happened and how?

Why are you walking away?

What words will make you stay?

Shall I just let you go?

I think I must let you go

 

By Elizabeth Azpurua

 

 



You Can't Have Me Crawling

"Silent Crawling"

I feel like rocks have been tied to my toes
and my shoes are full of lead
and my eyes are full of holes
I feel like I been draggin' myself across the ground
for too long now
and I can't make a sound
Should I be like the rubble left behind?
Should I be like a tree planted firm,
never moving, always stern?
I am sifting my fingers through the dirt
for a rope to pull me out
but no, no, never now
I feel like weights have been tied to my eyes
closing them tight to see
and I am blinded from the light
That might have led me to my tunnel's end
but I have found
I've been draggin' me too long now
Should I be like the towers crashed behind me?
Should I be like the rain falling,
drenching, drowning everything?
I am clenching my fists in dirt unable to find
that rope to pull me out
and save my life
I can't get ahead, and I stay behind, and why?
Because these weights upon me won't let me try
and I have been draggin' myself for far too long
without a rope to help me, I am just not strong
So tell me....should I be like the rubble left behind?
Should I be like a tree planted firm,
never moving, always stern?
Should I be like the towers crashed behind me?
Should I be like the rain falling,
drenching, drowning everything?
But I'm here silent and crawling

9/18/13


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"You Can't Have Me"

you want my body, Sir
and nothing more
you do not want my soul for sure

you want to feel me, Sir
because of my allure
for your lust there is no cure

but you do not want me to speak
don't want my soul, or me to think
you do not want my sharp mind
you only want me for my behind

thank you kindly, Sir
I am worth more
you can keep your pants on for sure

you can't have me, Sir
forget about my allure
I will offer you no cure

I can't be silenced or shut up
don't dare call me Buttercup
or Mami, or Baby, or Woman, or Doll
do not text, email, or call
do not show up at my door
don't dare treat me like a whore
I am worth so much more
you can't have me, Sir

9/12/13

Bold Silent Masks

And in the end twas silence loud
met by masks stark and proud,
awash in red and yet still cold
met this silence loud and bold,
but still what erred but humans weak
who fail to see and fail to speak?
They who wander lost and sick
with nothing on their bones to pick,
their souls too dusty,
minds too faint,
hearts gone rusty,
none a saint;
for they speak not and stand so sure
as if they know that they are pure
but they are silent at the end
when all shall innocence pretend
but what has erred but humans weak
who cannot feel and do not speak...
wearing masks and standing proud
behind a silence bold and loud

8/27/13

Orange

across your face,
beneath your chin
and framing that
most wicked grin
and everywhere
it leads from there
oh, how I love so much your hair

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Sets across the mountains here
overlooks the place I played
and all that I hold dear
in the color emblazoned against pink skies
it sets across that roof
and stains inside my eyes
in whispering tendrils a cloud
seems to hush the evening woods
and in silence loud
we greet the night


By Elizabeth Azpurua